Okay Well as you can see..... I AM STILL ON AN ARTIST BLOCK!!! .....wait.....thats nothing to dance to..... -_-'
how long has it been since i have actually colored and done something amazing of art? *tear*
I been wanting to draw something anime like. something about my story/ series/ kingdom hearts. etc.
but....nothing....

"bulletred:So seeing as how I have been on an artist block. . .
I have been working out for the past 2 weeks now....
push ups. sit ups, crunches, the usual home work outs at home...
Been walking, jogging, and Running outside in the walking path field thing by Montana Mikes from 7pm till 11:00pm-11:30ishpm/12am
to get some of the fat out of me. so i can work out later when i join the gym to gain the muscle.
seeing as how i cant draw anymore -_-''''
And 4-5 days ago...sprained my right foot ankle side....that day, i was running and running. I wasnt stopping. I just kept running for like 3 whole laps and then...well the signs say "please pick up animals remains if u bring them to park" and i noticed it like last second but people were in my way so i stepped on the grass field, slippery .....stupid grass....so my foot twisted so i wouldnt fall....i guess i should of fallen instead...but no...and now my ankle hurts..
but oh well. live and learn.

FACEBOOK......
Addict to it just like i am when i come to deviantart....
but somehow i have been picking the wrong friends there for this whole week.. Lost 4-6 of them in 2 days at the beginning on monday n tuesday..... how sad.....But i am not sad about it.
2 people...pretending to be friends. because they wanted to be nice and not look rude or mean or a bad person. SOOOO....they ask people and made them come and message me as their little "messenger people" and tell me to back off and they never wanted to be my friend, they were to nice and didn't want to look bad.
so i was like in reply. "im sorry, but im not gonna listen to you, if they don't want to be my friend, than tell them to tell me that themselves because i don't take it from messenger people". and then...i mean, i didnt think i said that in a mean way. . . only for the messengers to just cuss at me like there was no tomorrow! was like e (#)&)&#()&)**$&$(F*&&&***  like the whole message....and i was like......okay??????   is that the only language you know? grow up kid. you calling me immature, yet i am trying to say things nice in my last message, and you cuss like that all and about n random? if i had to say, you should grow up. cause your only showing yourself as the kid baby here. not I.....Not ME!
Than once i asked the 2 people if its true, they said to fuck off and they never wanted to be my friend and all this other stuff.
so then i was curious and asked them.... If you never really wanted to be my friend, than why would you accept my friend request.
It doesn't matter if you have someone tell me themselves or if its you "which would of been better" "to me if u have someone else tell me, it only shows that you are spineless and afraid...... you could of easily declined it....and ignoring isnt gonna always give those a hint. just SLAGGING tell them u dont want to be their friends....SO THERE!
1 person. who was like .....in pain...sad...lost their way....i helped them. he felt so much better, and said i made him feel like new again and that the pain was all gone, and made him feel like a person again. all happy and about again. only to...be told...
he can't talk to me because their friends didn't want me to be friends with him and that his dream and goal is to dance. and that he cant take the chance of his dream to break because of someone like me. and i can find someone else.
so i told him "So you would throw friends out on the side or in the garbage, even the ones you have feelings to... just to reach your goal and dreams of a career...that is just sad. so someone threatens you. "his mom" that they will not let u continue your dream and take it away?
1. NOBODY can ever take your dream away. your dream...your goal...the ambition in your heart and soul is yours and nobody elses. so it is impossible for anyone to take that away from you. So they take the chance away from you...so what? THERE ARE MANY OTHER WAYS other paths to take to get to your dream. because there is ALWAYS A WAY!!!!! not just one road to it. but many roads are open to it.
but throwing people away, just to get to it just because you had given sweat, blood, and time to it? and youll throw anyone who will ruin it? thats just sad. pathetic..an excuse....because....
say you have finally gotten to your dream.....that day...."whatever year that will be".....who will you celebrate with? because....all the friends you had that you threw away are gone....who will be there? no one...youll be all alone....... v.v''
and then he goes n tells me that im being immature about this and that i can find other friends. and that im acting like a baby and that what im saying doesn't make any sense?
is that true? is what my saying not make sense?
and im 21 apparently....i shouldnt be acting like a baby ....
sorry but it doesn't work that way. no mattter what age, young or old. big or thin. short or tall. female or male....its? a heart is a heart and all pains are the same when they are hurt. only difference about pain is when pain is to great.....
and then another one...well all the other guy did was just cuss and cuss and cuss

THENNNNN only to see yesterday!!!....some users apparently threw out BAD FEEDBACK  because i was like not leaving them alone? I HAVE because what i told them 2 "dont know if the 3rd one had anything to do with it" i stopped with them on tuesday. n it was thursday....so i say, yea i wasn't doing anything with them....so what was i doing? the message said i was like bad n can no longer send out friend requests. so i sent out a message to FB. and then i got it back n available again.

and then they text me like wednesday. saying They gonna call the cops on me......
now thats just sad n laughable....i not doing anything with them anymore and they only staying in the past.
simply laughable.

I felt sad when losing friends. but i come to realize.
if they leave you, than they aren't truly your friends.
the ones that stay with you thick n thin. good n bad.. those are your real friends
ones that treat you right.
many different qualities to being a friend but to much to say about it.
But i thank the ones that stay with me. my true friends
so thats what made me happy again. knowing who my real friends are

well yea....
didnt get to see the premier opening of "Transformers. dark of the moon"  at midnight.....so i is sad.....
but i see it someday sometime lol.



i been a crew chief for like a month or 2-3??? and they asked me on wed. if i wanted to be in management. so i might be even busier n have a better excuse of not doing art. or showing it or drawing it...."if i ever actually get to draw again" i probably lost my ability to draw or something....."no not really" cant lose...its only lost inside me somewhere.

so yea...i forgot what else i was gonna say or maybe thats it :S